Enigma...

As fresh as a serene lake,
as sacred as a silent shrine,
eternity it will take,
to fathom this friend of mine......

As soft as a beautiful lotus,
as pure as a sweet daffodil,
taking upon her life's onus,
with the power of her will.........

As young as a morning dewdrop,
as shy as a red rose,
with pride stands on top,
with her friends but no foes......

As precious as a gem,
as special as a moment,
who well deserves a hymn,
my friend, heaven-sent......

The school of hard knocks...

Here comes a phase of trying times,
with the past now my present rhymes,
It's about time to pull up my socks,
as i near the gates of the school of hard knocks....

Here comes a phase for digging deep,
to clench my fists and get ready to leap,
It's time for the key to open all the locks,
if i want to enter the school of hard knocks....

Here comes a phase to trust myself,
No God, no Devil, neither an angel, nor an elf,
It's time to hold tight as come crashing down the rocks,
if i want to survive the school of hard knocks..

Here comes a phase of endless pain,
of withering hope in the absence of a gain,
It's time to stay brave despite the cruel mocks,
if i want to learn in the school of hard knocks...

Here comes a phase to test my soul,
to see if on my heart life can take its toll,
It's time to look back even if the evil eye gawks,
if i want to pass out of the school of hard knocks...

A lone.....

A lone soul in the night,
searching for some company,
but no one seems to be in sight,
except the cold silent symphony....

A lone bird in the sky,
searching for its new home,
as nothing seems to meet its eye,
for ages it may have to roam...

A lone traveller on the street,
without a place to reach,
without a wish or a whim to retreat,
moving ahead he wants to preach...

A lone child in its tiny cradle,
without a reason to worry,
unaware of its life's riddle,
or how the future may be gory...

A lone wordsmith at his table,
with thoughts devoid of a reason,
trying to pen down a little fable,
with love alone and no treason...

It seems....

The pleasures of life,
seem to come at a price,
you render your soul,
and the devil will suffice.....

The bliss of tranquility,
seems to come after pain,
the peace of mind,
is followed by raising cain......

The smile of satiety,
seems to come from defiance,
when with the evil within,
the soul forms an alliance.....

The sound of laughter,
seems to come after a quiet,
when darkness reigns,
and devours the light......

The pursuit of lust,
seems to come after hate,
when unrequited love,
leads to a twist of fate.....

The sigh of relief,
seems to come after the end,
when a new beginning,
one has to befriend......

Undone...

After days of the endless dark,
drowned in the sea of oblivion,
i can see light again,
the spell is undone......

After years of a painful wait,

in the shadow of loneliness,
a silhouette is now beside,
the spell is undone......

After nights of a cold quiet,
in the silence of my thoughts,
a voice has awakened,
the spell is undone......

After longing for a lost love,
which was never really found,
lust will do its work now,
the spell is undone.....

After an era of sacred worship,
divine and serene,
now the devil awaits my soul,
the spell is undone......

Here i am....

Here i am on my knees again,
gathering the broken pieces,
putting them together somehow,
amazed by how life teaches......

Here i am with trembling hands,
the same which once had hurled,
holding close to my dear heart,
what's left of my broken world....

Here i am with quivering lips,
trying to utter a sound,
knowing that it won't be heard,
still hoping for it to be found....

Here i am with saddened eyes,
and a face devoid of mirth,
well aware of what is lost,
and what exactly it was worth....

Here i am with a last wish,
begging for it to be granted,
may never return the nightmare,
by which for years i've been haunted....

Set free.....

After years of anguish,
and an eternity of pain,
from the shackles of agony,
a prisoner is set free....

After ages of confinement,
and a long hidden grief,
from the formality of life,
a soul is set free....

After days of reluctance,
and nights of dismay,
from the cage of memories,
a bird is set free....

After an era of sadness,
and endless tears,
from the noise of a silence,
a cry is set free....

After a time hard to fathom,
and an unseen spell of love,
from the tangled strings of his heart,
a fool in is set free.....

Missed out..

There she had been right from day one,
to wipe my tears and make me see fun,
But back in those days i was blinded by a farce,
with the moon by my side i was aiming for the stars....

I never realized what she meant to me,
it was something i was too late to see,
Now that i know what she was really worth,
nothing will change even if i move heaven and earth...

She was there for me when i needed her the most,
but i refused fate when it offered me a toast,
Once again i have lost my chance,
to the song of life now alone i dance...

Now she's happy in her own little life,
but she's still always there to share my strife,
I can't ask for more than i already have,
though all's left of life now is an empty valve...

But this is not as sad as it sounds,
as this friendship of ours knows no bounds,
Though i missed out again it's not the end,
as what i've found in her is a lifelong friend.....

End of an era...

Time went by just in a blink of an eye,
with the strings of memories i made it tie,
What had begun always had to end,
it hurts no more as now pain's a friend....

I'm not sure where the years went away,
and how way back in time i made myself stay,
Life had moved on so far ahead,
it was hard to fathom in which way it had lead....

I tried to catch up but to no avail,
as i was told then i was on the wrong trail,
It's now that i realize my own mistake,
i now understand that i had put a lot at stake...

I tried to win something which i couldn't get,
but since i tried i don't need to regret,
They always say it's better late than never,
now i'll keep that in mind forever and ever....

This marks the beginning of a new story,
the end of which i hope will be all hunky-dory,
To say the least it's the end of an era,
from now on it's simply que-sera-sera.........

Let it go...

It's been quite a while,
since the end of the show,
The moment has passed,
it's time to let it go....

Now he may be a stranger,
neither a friend nor a foe,
But he still lingers in your mind,
it's time to let it go...

You've been in pain,
to hell back and fro,
But he's not in your world now,
it's time to let it go...

Why let him reside in your thoughts,
and allow your pain to grow,
You've had enough already,
it's time to let it go....

This is the ride they call life,
sometimes high while sometimes low,
You have someone to pull you up,
it's time to let it go...

How's it fair.....

How's it fair i don't understand,
my time slipped away like a handful of sand,
How's it fair that she did the crime,
and i was made to repent and do the time.....

How's it fair that she didn't seem to care,
and the pain i felt was more than my share,
How's it fair that she just walked away,
without even letting me have my say....

How's it fair that the years passed by,
and she could never hear the sound of my sigh,
How's it fair that she didn't stand by my side,
and i had to go alone on this lonely ride...

How's it fair that i could never begin,
but i'm at the end of the race without a win,
How's it fair that she failed to see,
the heart she searched was beating inside me...

How's it fair that my eyes are closing,
but that sight of hers i don't seem to be losing,
How's it fair that even after i'm long gone,
i'll be back at her side from the break of every dawn...

Here we go again....!

You must've seen those unbelievably whacky rides you have at these amusement parks. And you must've also seen these incredibly insane people who keep on getting on those rides despite throwing up like a volcano everytime the ride ends...! Well...as preposterous as it may sound..this is quite akin to that. I guess i've taken Leonardo Dicaprio from TITANIC a bit too seriously when he said that, "Never let go..."

So the point is that i'm back to square one as was predicted by my brother. He can probably foretell the future or he just knows me too well. By the end of the day, i'm right back to where i had started from. It's almost as if i'm moving in circles...! Or may be i do see a way out, but i don't want to take it because it leads me to a world which is lonelier than the one i live in right now. It is probably not the full shilling on my part to expect something 'good' to happen from this point onwards. And i'm sure this post will receive a lot of criticism and a very severe reprimand from all the people who care enough to read my blog because they have nothing else to do in life, but i guess i've become immuned to all of that now with the 8 year long experience that i have of being foolish in love and turning my life into a travesty of sorts every now and then.

So the blunderbuss is at work yet again..and will probably continue to bemuse you with his anecdotes...that's all folks..! And i guess...i'll see you when i see you..!!!