Down come the curtains...

This post is not a tribute to the nerve-wrecking, nail-biting, and awe-inspiring finish that graced the IPL and the millions of cricket aficionados all over the globe who witnessed the spectacle. Because even though the IPL phenomenon may have reached its inevitable end with a promise to return next year again, there is another thing which has also seen its ultimate climax- my one sided love life. After a really long period of almost close to 8 years, i have decided to stop chasing the only dream that i have been so far.

May be it has now completely dawned on me that there was not much left to carry on with in case of that relationship, that's too if i dare to assume that there actually was a friendship in existence to begin with. The point is, that the show is over and the drapes have finally fallen never to rise again. But life goes on, because it has to. And i'm sure that the end of this story, this wonderful era, will surely mark the beginning of another. And i just hope that in case there happens to be another story, it better have a story-book ending which i have always craved for.

I have learnt a lot in the past 8 years, and i still maintain the fact that they were and will always remain the most amazing 8 years of my life. Those years made life what it is today. Those years made me what i am today. It has been a great life so far without a shred of a doubt. And i don't know for sure who had said this and in which movie but, " The old dreams, were good dreams. Some of them didn't come true ...but i'm glad i had them anyway..."

By the way, for the first time in my life i wish my brother was right. I'm not referring to his idea about me moving on in life. I'm referring to the fact that to make me feel better, he actually condescended himself to say the following words quoted by a man he hates to the core..."Picture abhi baki hai mere dost..." I hope he's right. And even if he's not, as far as 'life' is concerned, he knows just as well as i do, that picture abhi bahut baki hai mere dost.....

Waiting for the magic...

There have been times in the past when i had sensed that i was about to fall off the cliff with no hope left whatsoever.... but then.... something used to pull me back...just in time. That had felt nothing short of sheer magic. I think i need that magic to help me out again...one last time. It may manifest itself in any way possible. It could be in the form of a happy coincident- serendipity, it could be by the way of change of heart or it could simply be a bizzarre twist of fate of sorts which changes a person's life inside out.

If the magic doesn't come to my rescue this time around, i don't plan on blaming its absence for the void that might be left in my life in the future. I guess i'm expecting it because they say that fortune smiles on the brave. Now, there i got to use my favorite proverb, as well as i got to call myself brave..!

Life has already thrown a bunch of sucker punches at me, and i think i've done a pretty darn good job still staying on my feet. There were times when i was knocked out cold, but i somehow managed to stand up again, asking for more. There came the magic again. The truth is, this magic is inside me. The problem is, that it comes out very seldom. And i think i would need it to come out in all its glory a bit more often for the next year or so. Life has tried to punch me out to sweet slumber many times, but i've kept coming back, again and again. I have not stayed down. And i don't intend on doing that anytime in the near future.

As they say, the true character of a man is not defined when he's on the top of the world or a woman; it's defined when how he makes it up back to his feet every single time he's knocked down....

I think it's time to put my character to test. And life can bring anything and everything it has got to put me out for good again..because i'm going to bring out that magic...my magic...yet again...

The new grind...

It has been a whole different life since the past month or so. My exams are over , and i couldn't be more glad about that. And i know that life's going to change further in the coming weeks, thanks to my internship. Amidst the IPL, where the word 'unpredictability' has taken a whole different dimension, my life seems to be on shaky grounds too. Now it's not about any confusion, or making a decision. Now it's about really going for the doctor and pulling out all the stops - one last time. Because life may not be generous enough to give me a third chance after this. But this time around, i may have to walk on eggshells. One mistake and life goes tumbling down like a pack of cards.

And obviously i'm not in the mood to see that happen, again. The fear is still burning inside my heart of hearts. But that same fear might be enough to lit a fire under my ass so that i do something about my life, and that too in a very short period of time. Because i know,that there's not much time left for me to prove that i'm worth my salt. Now i know where to reach, i know the route for the same. But it's a long, hard way uptill there. And if i get late, i may not find what i'm looking for despite reaching the place. Think of it as a magic passage which will seal itself in some time. If i make it to the place, and beyond that magic passage, i'll find eternal bliss in its truest sense. I'll be in paradise, forever. And i won't be alone. I'm on my way already...let's see if i make it....but i hope i do...i hope..